Y U MAKE FUN OOF ME!!! Well BC you look stupid. Ha I had a great day today finished two bbook's,
Hung out at the pool with the child, read a book. I am content.

Watching you sleep

" there is no love like a mothers love" I never understood that saying. How could a mother love differently?
Growing up with Brighten, yes growing up. I had him when I was 19; I was a very young And immature 19. So our life together has been full of watching each other grow up. 

Being a young mother, I was not " instantly " attached" to him. I loved him, but I wasn't ready to give up my selfish ways nor was I experienced enough. I always knew I loved him, but the love I feel now is outrageous. Its fierce. I never knew one could feel tthis way about a child. I watch him sleep and think " I would cross the depths of any earth, brave any battle, and sacrifice the greatest sacrifice, all to make sure you are Ok.and have what you need. Like all moms I am.guilty of watching him sleep and quietly creeping over with a compact mirror to make sure he's still breathing. Ha-ha running my finger over the sole of his foot - just to watch it move! LOL He is so amazing to me, he encompasses all of my good qualities, not only is he's a lady killer, but he's creative, a loner, a leader, he is an inventor, he is strong, and definitely not niave. Yet he posses none of my bad ones. He is So kind, caring, compassionate, he has a heart full of empathy, and is able to feel sympathy. He was blessed witg the " nurturing gene. " These are things it took me years to learn. And he just has them naturally..

Ill end with this. I have done a Ton of things in my life that I am not proud of, maybe even a bit ashamed. But never once has a choice in my life ever effected my child. I made very sure of it. " do your dirt when you're child free" I am a firm believer in that. He is the best thing I have ever done, and I am so thankful that I made that choice to keep him, I am So greatful that God believed in me, and I am extremely blessed that I get to watch him while he sleeps. Have a great Monday!

Vintage darling.. Vintage

So I am a Photographer, Thats what I do and I think I shall post some of my favorite shots of the week for this blog as well..
I am extremely pleased with this shoot. It was definitely more my "style" vintage, darling, chic.. like I'm used to taking photos of women - its how I was able to bring in a little of my own flare made the 3.5 hours it took breeze by!! And her mother was amazing and just as creative ( She made the dress she's wearing and Tutu in the trunk) 

Of course I brought the pearls & heels! I can't help it!! This last shot of her looks like it should be on a Hallmark card. And that made the 3.5 hours of shooting in 87* weather with a sunburn that made it hurt to move. Well worth it in the ebd-- I even got my first "BRAVO" from a fellow photographer.

I will wear my scars like Diamonds.. Just you wait and see

"I see beauty as the grace point between what hurts and what heals, between the shadow of tragedy and the light of joy. I find beauty in my scars. And I will wear my Scars like Diamonds."

I think back to when Life was easy,  a Much Simpler time in life. Boys were much more different to us girls-- Probably because they had yet to of been tread on by the "soles" of us broken, and jaded women. But I think back, when Winning the girl over was the Objective, sitting with her every day at the lunch table, passing notes back and forth, sneaking around school holding "Pinkys" because the actual ART of holding hands was prohibited. Art? Why would I use such a word? Because there is a FINE art to holding a proper hand. The man must take the front, the lead why? Because that's what MAN was meant to do. He was meant to be a leader, a provider, a builder, a lover. And our hands were meant to be in the back, Why? Please do not think its because we are not Capable of leading but because of how fragile, and delicate we were meant to be. Yeah yeah, "Its because you were meant to walk behind man" Blah Blah Blah whatever else they say really makes no never mind to me because this is what I believe.
We as a whole, I believe have lost so much of what it means to date, to court, to be in an actual relatonship. Some want to blame it on Television, others what to blame it on changing roles in society. But really, its changed because WE have allowed it.  WE as women. We have accepted the change, and hoped on the train in fear of being left behind, the fear of being alone.. Now I have fears far greater than of ever being alone, Now I wonder if TRUE Absolute love is still able to exist. Now, I do not say that for yu to comment back with an uplifting message such as " Oh honey, the right one is waritng for you" Or " its just not your time" or my personal favorite, " it will happen when you least expect it-- so stop looking" I am not saying this because I am so bitter that I just no longer want to believe in true love. I say it because I do not know if WE and again I use WE are now capable of that type of emotion. WE are a nation are damaged. and if you disagree with that statement, You are  most certainly damaged!

I am done ranting for now, and will finish this up a later date! my ADD has kicked in! (=

why did i create a blog? I have no idea. Just do not expect to come back everyday and find something new I am horrible at keeping up with these things..